The beginning of the year always catches me by surprise. It never used to, maybe it is because I am getting old.
I used to have the new year planned out and sat, diary in hand and counting the seconds till I can start to use it. Then the first half of January I would be so frustrated because nothing is open, nothing has started to happen yet.
Now... It is chaos. When the first of January hits, no matter how well I have the month planned out it is chaos. It is as if every time I get older time says.. Hey, lets play a trick on her and start this year double time.. We can always slow way down by June and then go even slower in November.
This year I felt prepared, more than I was for 2020. I got my diary in November already, a nice big one to do all my homeschooling planning in. I started to write in my routine and subjects to discuss each day. I even wrote it in pretty colors. I got all the books and accessories for science and biology and craft supplies. I was sure I was ready.
The 2nd of January I had a panic attack because the month is almost over.
My help was going on holiday for 2 weeks starting the 4th of January. Two weeks in the time that gymnastics and stuff starts up again. Businesses open, I need to do Avon recruiting.. Breathe, breathe, breathe...
I had my wires crossed and my help only went on holiday the 11th of January for a week and will be taking the second week starting 25 January. I was able to do some recruiting today and I do feel a bit more relaxed (at this moment).
I am sure tomorrow or Monday I might have another episode of... WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING!
I need to start homeschooling.. of course with the new lockdown stuff the government schools only start 25 February but I am not them... I need to get my kids sorted. I need to do work with them. My nerves...
I do believe Feb will be better (in my minds eye I see Feb rubbing its hands together plotting some crazy plan of how to make me hyperventilate). Positive thoughts, positive attitude, faith, trust and breathe.
In some heart smiling news... I have 3 gorgeous amazing boys who ensure I have no dull moments.
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